Hurtful by a girl I love (my ex)

Earlier in the day she gave me a time for us to meet and then a few minutes later she retracted and canceled on me. The meeting was a now or never situation for me, and she clearly picked never. There is nothing left for us, and for me well I am done. It's time for me to crossover as there is nothing left here. Your everything I loved, and when that left(when you left) me, I'm nothing and have nothing. I lost what meant everything to me. Good-bye and enjoy your happy life. I'm just a minor footnote to you and you won't feel anything as you've gotten past me for 2 months already. You'll never know how much I love you, I love you more than you'll ever know. You'll no longer have to fear or be scared of never seeing me or anything else involving me. A song you can listen to is "Always" by the band Dope, that was the first song you introduced to me when we first went out, ironically it's the last song I dedicate to you before I go. I gave you my all, so here's goodbye to you. I dreamed of all that we could be, promises I made of what we would be. You were all I had inside of me.

That's what happened yesterday and what i wrote last night, that how hurt and depressed i was by her. And the fact is: I still Love her.
The message is pretty clear, she does not want to speak with me or even see me. Sigh* I'll have to accept it and move on. Last night after my failed attempts to speak with her (she said she would call me, but then avoided me again like the past times), I was able to calm myself from being so depressed in sad and not cry. I told myself to go through the process of grieving and mourning what lost and move on.